“There are sheep in this world and there are wolves in this world.” Blind Jasper John in Peanut Butter Falcon

Before everything happened, I assumed that disabled people were well taken care of. Oh my was I wrong! If I knew how bad it really was, I would’ve gotten involved before. I hate seeing people being bullied or taken advantage of. Especially vulnerable people. I’m so saddened by the way others are treated sometimes and how some people seek out those who are easier and weaker prey. Nice to know some people hold on to those animal instincts though. If a tiger takes down an elephant, others are impressed but if he got a bunny rabbit, he’d still be hungry and shouldn’t be proud or expect applause. It’s become a world of every man for themselves. Thank goodness for the wonderful people with hearts big enough to help others because I probably wouldn’t be able to survive this world without them! THANK YOU!

I don’t step on others to get ahead but, unfortunately, that’s how most people have to get by.
I have to fight to barely survive. Fight to even get healthcare and almost everything else in my life. NOTHING comes easily. Then they call you combative or mean but that’s just how you’ve learned to survive. You learn that you have to fight just to be treated human. It becomes a way of life. Trust me, nobody likes being that way. Like a caged dog. If it gets abused every time that door opens, They’ll try to bite the hand just to avoid that. But if it’s loved every time instead, it will be trusting and happy. Not making excuses, just stating a fact.

When I’m personally slighted, I used to just brush things off but then thought- if they do this to me and think it’s ok, they will certainly do this to someone else who can’t or won’t do anything and it might have a bigger impact on their lives.

I hate seeing other people taken advantage of. It may seem ridiculous and some people probably blame it on my brain injury. My sickness only affected me physically, not mentally. Sure it delayed things or caused temporary side effects but mentally, I’m the same. If I act differently, it can be attributed to the things I went through and my reactions to them. I saw how you can be fine one day and not the next, how life can be over or your life can be forever changed in the blink of an eye, I know pain and torture, how it feels to lose everything and almost everyone, how it feels to truly be alone, how it feels to have nobody supporting you, what its like not to have anyone to trust….. So I truly appreciate those things.

I try to tell everyone exactly how I feel so there are no doubts. I like people to leave me with a smile on their face and I don’t care if it’s to me or at me. A smile just makes everyone feel better.

I go for timed laps around the blocks near me and I’ve met some wonderful people. There are a few very overgrown vines, trees and bushes that always slap me in the face as I go by or transfer lovely bugs on me that make sure they bite me many times. I usually go during the day when people are gone but the other day, stuff happened, so I went later. This group of people were outside watching and the next day, all of the obstacles were cut. On about 5 houses. I looked and none of those yards had any other yard work done. Their other bushes weren’t cut, just the ones in my way. It could be a lot of different reasons but I choose to believe that some people are just so amazing and it makes me smile 😊

“There are sheep in this world and there are wolves in this world.” Blind Jasper John in Peanut Butter Falcon